love of your life? perhaps..

my nails are GREEN now! cool leh.. =P


regarding to my emo title.. lets just say some things are meant to left unsaid but.... i just cant take it anymore! i wanna blow wei!

first cut is the deepest? i know everyone agrees with me..
somehow.. its JUST so hard to move on.. i know... i know.. its so easy to tell others whose going tru the same thing just by saying "he/she is not worthy la... move on!", but... everything i do seems to relate to you.. errrr! why la....?? *totally understands your situation justin* (but i dont know why im advising you la) haha..


when i pass by those places we used to hang out together... memories of the past being with you never seem to fade. so CLEAR.. so happy.. so............... the messages... the songs... the pictures..
i used to think that you were the one... THE ONE! so naive of me at this age? probably im not the only one when it comes to your very first love.. i thought i knew him well.. a little too well perhaps?


i really dont know how to write this.. but my fingers arent stopping abit!
im already in tears now.. and im definately a person who seldom cries.. did he just changed me?
i think the answer is clearly a 'YES'! he did... both positive and negative! i think differently in every aspect now and dont trust OTHERS! he is one influential person.. ive learned alot too! one of those is learning how to take the bus! lol


but........ why is he moving on so fast? was his love for me as true too? i mean.... what was he thinking when i said "it"? why he never tried to at least do something to save it?


why cant i? why cant i move on just like him! seems so easy for him... what is pulling me back? i'll to answer that soon.. hmmm... for now... zZZZZ *late you*

part two soon*